The Blackest BeautifulA Poem by Rhys JacobsA tribute to the woman I loved, who passed away February 16, 2014. Goodbye my love.On the day you died, I fought for air on my kitchen floor. The swelling of my throat caught me, I stumbled and resisted tears. If I'd had air to breath, I would've screamed until my black and useless lungs gave in. I would've cried oceans with the salt in my eyes stinging. Now, I see your car through the fog covering my eyes, perched like a bird on concrete branches. A beautiful black bird. My hands tremble and go numb when I remember what we said and didn't say. We preached wisdom, believing God and time were on our side. One week later and You're fighting for your life and I'm fighting to maintain my own. Yesterday, one call and I'm by your bedside. I heard the clicking of machines, the labour of forced breathing, the raggedness of your mothers voice as she told me everything would be okay. I knew it wouldn't be. I forced myself into hope. I should've worn my blackest humours. How fitting that your last few minutes with me were in your black car in your black shirt in your black shorts in your black shoes with my black lungs breathing in the smoke you brought me. Now I stand against the tide of sobs Your death has raised. And though I will bade this river flood and drown me where I stand, I am still grateful to drink from it with the cup you made me. And like Poe and his Annabel-Lee I know I will see you again in our home by the river. My wonderful, eternal Aimee-Leigh. © 2014 Rhys Jacobs |
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Added on February 18, 2014 Last Updated on February 18, 2014 AuthorRhys JacobsCape Town, South AfricaAboutI'm in a burning house and I'm taking you all with me. Pull up a chair and pour yourself a stiff drink. more..Writing
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