Today

I know that today is the end. Today I will die, yesterday is merely a dream, and tomorrow will never exist. This world is sad, so beautiful and sad. Because it will never know me, and all the wonderful possibilities, the endless adventures were all a fools dream. Waiting in hopes that someone will take pity on a scoundrel like me. The dream I had, the hope of love I so desired, will die along with me.
The table underneath me creeks as I try to make myself comfortable and prepare for it. I don’t know how I will die; I just hope that it will be quick so I can go in grace. No one, not one eye can look at me. I’m sure they feel bad, but it’s not their fault, not their fault I was undesirable. I bet it would have been too much to have me. I would have been too much for any person to handle.
There is a tiny table next to me with a small thing with something sharp at the end. It winks a glint of light and I have to close my eyes. My heart breaks with every deep breath. I can hear deep voices around me, non to comfort me.
Minutes pass over me slowly. It’s almost time. I feel a hand on my side stroking me gently. I slowly open my eyes and a glow of kindness illuminates my dim.
There, there she whispers stroking my head. It’ll be alright. Everything will be okay. My ears take in her voice. I study her face; wide lips, light eyes, pink cheeks, beak like nose. She as a friendly, a face my best friend would have had.
It’s unfair, she says. This world is unkind and something as sweet as you suffers because this big world can’t find any room to love you. I have this dream that if I could I would build a huge farm and take you and others like you to it and live happily ever after. That’s my dream, but for you my dream is for you to find salvation and have a heavenly life somewhere beyond this.
I close my eyes and I nudge my head closer to her hand in thanks. I hope her dream for me comes true. The world is small, too small. The sky is endless, and as I die I hope that god will take pity on a creature like me.
I’m falling asleep and in the far distance I hear those beautiful words; good boy… that’s a good doggy….