A soldier's regrets

A Story by T

Granddaughter visits grandpa in the hospital for the first time in her life because he's dyeing from cancer

My name is sue i just turned twelve yesterday. today i walk into the hospital with my daddy he says grandpa is sick I didn't know I had a grandpa I was super excited about meeting him but daddy stops to talk to the doctors so i walk up to the nurses station by myself and asked what room is Peter Polanski in? the nurse looks up and says hi where are your parents sweetie ? "My dad is talking to the doctors and he told to go to grandpas room the nurse was hesitant but gave in because the little girl was so cute. i say" im going to meet my grandfather for the first time today i say in a cheerful voice " the nurse says he's in room 134 " thank you "i say as im walking down the hall of the hospital waving at people as i pass them i gets to my grandfather's room but he looks asleep so i walks quietly as i can i dont want to make a bad impression to grandpa so i sit in the chair next to his bed and look at him noticing his almost bald head his blueish gray hair the fluffy mustache that looks like it would tickle to touch his broad shoulders and pale skin.then all of a sudden the heart monitor lets out a long beep and it goes flat the nurses rush in I didn't know what to do one nurse moves his tray it knocks a piece of paper to the floor I pick it up and i start to read it .... As lay here on my death bed with last stage lung cancer i feel my life slipping away no saving me now" i should have quit smoking when i had the chance when i was younger so now im writing this letter asking for forgiveness as my life flashes through my mind of all the horrible things I have done for my religion and country the innocent lives that were taken just because they didn't believe in the same God ....the things I was ordered to do, I watched my commander kill women and children and i just stood there in shock they even made all the men left alive in the village watch them do this to the women and children . that really isn't the worst thing I have done but it's the one thing that weighs on my soul the most they should of been left alone, I hope this letter is read by my son I haven't seen him in years I love my son I'm sorry i wasn't there for you and your wife I wish i could of met my granddaughter but i was just to stubborn to forgive you until now . i just want people to know I regret what i have done and i repent for my sins. If you burn this I won't be to upset I think i deserve to be forgotten. ..it's getting hard to breathe now .signed p .I look at grandpa with the nurses trying to revive him i see him appear to his bed and he looks down at himself just laying there in the bed .then he looks at me and smiles ,I smile back and wave back ,my dad walks up behind me and says "I guess we were to late grandpa went to heaven I so sorry sue" I say"no he's not gone grandpa's right there as I pointed in front of the bed ,he looks puzzled for a minute he looks at the bed and say thats just grandpa's body his spirit went to heaven "I say" no he's in front of his bed daddy says " I don't see anything but ok honey" then I show him the letter "look daddy what i found next to grandpa's bed"my dad takes the letter and starts to read as he does tears well up in his eyes ,he drops the letter it floats gently to the floor ,when daddy looks up he sees grandpa like i can .right in front of the bed where i said he was at,my dad couldn't believe what he was seeing then my grandpa fades before our
eyes...my daddy turns pale as a ghost and looks at me and says did you see that sue?I nod my head .