Crushing

It's not a story, just me talking about the girl I like.

She has dark brown eyes, that almost look black. But when she's happy or it's sunny outside they lighten to this really gorgeous shade of honey brown. I swear they sparkle too. Can I tell you about her smile? It's..Just Wow. Fantastic. When she's really happy it's this bright smile that could make anything sad go away. And oh, my gods, when she's being just silly or flirtatious. She gets this wicked grin on her face and her eyes are whiskey brown and it's amazing. Her hair is honey blonde and dark brown. When her hair is drying after getting wet it's a light golden brown. Her hair goes to her shoulders and she's probably around 5'6 or something.She's not delicate but when you look at her you see someone who, how do I explain this? Someone you trust, not overly muscled but not lean. She's...I don't know. She's perfect. Yeah, I know she has flaws, but I love them. All of them, because they're what makes her her. She jokes alot, is flirtatious but only with her other class mate and me. Mostly me, but since she jokes...She's hilarious and no matter what, always makes me smile. Always, even when I have really bad days and I just wanna sit in the corner and cry. She makes me laugh at those times, she's the reason I haven't tried to kill myself again. I can't bear not seeing her and I don't want her to be sad over someone like me. She's hella blunt, honest, nice, and when she gets embarrassed she has a sort of pout/scowl on her face and it is the most gorgeous thing I've ever seen.      We talk about everything together and sometimes when I don't feel like talking she does, and...Well, just listening to her talk about the randomest thing ever makes me happy. I always worry about her when she's being reckless/ I never told her how I feel, in this world with all the homophobia. And I don't want her to hate me or say she doesn't like me, because that would hurt more than anything. I'm happy with being with her for now, because she's my friend. More than that to me since my friends can't cheer me up when I'm depressed....She's there, and that makes me feel so much better. The only thing that sucks is that she's graduating...So, this year was the last. I'd probably see her more, but my mom wants to move..