Erased

scattered thoughts

I remember telling Mom how you never said you love me
I remember how you had pictures of her and her baby in your wallet
Deleted, constantly deleted
I look at the way you smile when you are with them
Why can't you smile like that when you are with us?
Why do you feel awkward when you hug me?
Why do you have to hide so many things from me?
Why do I feel so angry
When I look at you playing dolls
Why do I feel angry
When you smile into her hazel eyes
Why do you hug her so freely?
So intimately... so kindly
I
Your only child...
No connection
Never will be.

Reviews

[Aspiring Angel]

Oh I am so sorry if this is true fact and sadly I feel it is. This is probably the very reason that your family is so important to you (from your profile) I am sorry it has been awhile since I visited but I will be back for sure.

Hugs,
Lesa

[Seriana]

Ouch....dang, this is a painful thing to hear someone write about. I can't even imagine the hurt and rejection felt. I truly hope this isn't you, but if it is, I'm sorry. This is a beautiful way to express your feelings, though. So raw and painful.