Two Years Without You

You are frozen in time.

You are forever twenty two.

My heart feels so empty

with just an imprint of you.

An empty heart

does not mean I feel lighter.

It is heavier than ever,

but I have always been a fighter.

Seven hundred and thirty days

that I haven't seen your beautiful face.

A very helpless empty thought,

this moment filled with very dark space.

My childhood was taken.

It was snatched in a glance.

Like a deer in headlights,

forever stuck in this stance.

Everything referred to

before and after.

Each smile is now different.

There is pain behind laughter.

No amount of wealth

and no amount of tears,

can bring me new memories

or bring back those years.

"Happy sibling day"

is the last thing I wrote

but no response in return,

just a phone call to end hope.

I still can't breathe at times

when my heart skips a beat.

I can't allow God taking you

to be my defeat.

As you would never approve of this

from a sister you knew that was strong.

Everyone said that time heals all wounds...

well, everyone was wrong. 

From your big sister and best friend always. I love you more than anything, Anooj. 

Reviews

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

Hi im so sorry for your loss of your sibling. Ive lost a sister too when i was 22 she was 25 ended it all. That was years ago Im now 60. Things change, grieving changes, time passes, a song, a photo a memory brings it all back. ! Love your poem x