I Don't Want to Love You Anymore

Something I found that I wrote a really long time ago. Something along the lines of: Just because you love someone doesn't mean you're meant to be with them.

Shakespeare said it best when he said that true love is not love which alters when it alteration finds, or bends with the remover to remove. 

I know now what I didn't know then. You loved me. Not as much as I you but you loved me. I love you today the same way that I loved you then, and the same way that I’ll love you in the years to come. I love you but holding on to the faint residue of what was once us is like a dog chasing its tail, because all that brings is pain.

I did what I did. I took my leap of faith. I just thought that you would be there to catch me, but the closer that I got to where I thought you were standing the farther away I realised you were. 

You didn't need to say anything, I knew it was over. The eyes can't hide what the lips won't speak. My eyes hid nothing from you, not even my tears. I won't cry for you anymore, because it makes me less of who should be and makes me want more of what I can't have.

So tonight I dream of you one last time. Tonight I’ll kiss you one last time. Tonight I’ll hold you one last time. Tonight I’ll tell you that I love you one last time. When my eyes open in the morning and you no longer exist to me then tonight will be the yesterday of the tomorrow that I've dreamed of in the days gone by...

Author's Note

Something along the lines of you can still love someone without being with them. Getting your heart broken hurts but it's not the end of the world. Even though it often feels like that. I think I was 16 or 17 when I wrote this. Decided not to edit it.