One Time, Fine But This Makes Nine

Slowly but surely, I’m losing it again

Heads confused but still these thoughts persist, I swear I hear your voice in my head
This chemical unbalanced, a mechanical duress, sets these alarm bells off in my head
Can’t sleep, can’t eat, can’t repay this debt
With enough rest maybe I’ll regather this mess
But the clouds are above, stars nonexistent
I pace these halls but I’m not sure what’s missing, another loud noise and now it’s splitting, spitting inside of me, rhythm got me thinking outside of me, don’t really know what’s behind me but I can’t seem to find what’s inside of me, besides myself just to hide myself, another one down but I’m still not sure what’s come over me, it lies to me but confides with me, talking to myself I should try to be, come lie with me, tell me the thoughts you hide from me, I’ll try to be a little be more wise to see through the ties you keep, another piece of yourself you hide inside but time flies by and the skies collide, never could be what you want of me but these cries from me, another drop spilled but I don’t have time to see the possibility that it was never me, come back to me, let me see the otherside that’s blind to be, this silence is deafening but it’s defeating me, be fleetingly so another can possibly be, why should it have to be? The end I see, another tunnel of light depleting me, just let me be

Author's Note

The repetition wasn’t noticed until it was too late