Built me up

Sad stuff about sad things

You never even read it
You built me up to watch me fall
An endless pit I've fallen for
Cast aside my thoughts
Throw away the words you said to me

You built me up to watch me fall
You built me up to watch me fall

I actually believed you
When you said I had a gift
Not for the admiration of others
I thought I have you captivated
With the mind I thought that I had

Thought indeed for I was wrong
A shallow person you seemed to become
An endless hole with a hole
The spark of hope when you said I was more
You used me the same you would a mat on the floor

You built me up to watch me fall
An easy thing for you to ignore
I was never good enough
I never even held a place in your head
The idea of us was never even entertained
Inside that shallow pit you call a brain
Go for looks but trust me they will fade
I fell for you brain
But you disguised the way it truely works
And have left me in a state of disgust
I'm sorry but I will not apologise

You'll never read this anyway
Let alone here it over a drop tuning
I'll never sing for you again
Cannot will not
There is no try
Only a play thing

Build me up one more time
Feel my heart beat the same as that night
You won't find another.

Reviews

[A.L.]

I was pleasantly surprised at the end that instead of more pity, you left it with a rebellious ending.

Why cling to only sadness? Is there not something more desirable in your eyes? I'm not bashing you, I'm generally curious.

[KalebX_]

There is no light left in my eyes I am afraid, the fires died long ago and as of recent, the embers too. I cling to sadness because it is the only thing that never truly leaves. The end is my little f**k you to certain people, who say one thing but I can feel there is something else there. It's a pity some people chose appearance over intellect or even bring in age as a factor for not wanting anything more with someone yet still claim there is a strong connection. People will be cruel but I'll just stay bitter.

[A.L.]

Hmm you lie. If there was truly no light you wouldn't have such opinions, you wouldn't write and you wouldn't have enough anger to say "f**k you".
Yes people will be cruel but did you expect anything different? That's why it's so refreshing when you find those who are not. Look for them and be one of them. Make a difference instead of floating. It's more exciting ;)

[KalebX_]

She swore she was different and I believe it, shame on me. The fire is out, like I said bitterness with a touch of eloquence. These Are all f**k yous that will never be read by the people they are intended for. The long story I wrote? That was going to be a book for one of them, then I found out her true nature and well, I couldn't keep the fake happiness there. The truth about that story was no one was meant to die, the boy gets the girl and it ends pleasantly but she changed my mindset and resulted with me killing everyone, my true destructive nature rearing its head into things, using true events that happened. The things I've tried to hide openly put on display. Want to know the ending? Everyone dies at my hands because I have the power to destroy anything I touch.

[A.L.]

Everyone has the power to destroy what they touch. But it's up to us whether we do or not.

I don't know the full story or her side so I can't really form an opinion. But I am sorry that you had to endure that crappy situation. But you can't live your life stuck in that moment forever. It's hurting you more than it's hurting them. So what's the point?

[KalebX_]

There is no point, it's all in vain.

[KalebX_]

But vainity saves me.

[A.L.]

Hmm you and the things you cling to. Illogical but it's your choice.

[KalebX_]

There is a method to the madness, it drives me. One day I will make everyone see that I'm not as useless as I claim to be, one day will come and that's what keeps me on my grind. I will prove them wrong.

[A.L.]

I know you will which is why I say, why wait? Why not do it now?

[KalebX_]

Because it takes time to learn the skills I need, it's more about the experience. If you can guess what I am studying to be, I'll serenade you

[A.L.]

Does it have something to do with the mind? Maybe detective work? Frankly I'm not sure.

[KalebX_]

Not even close my dear

[KalebX_]

But at the same time, kind of, the mind plays a big part in my line of work.

[A.L.]

Hmm you give me no hints, with an infinite amount of jobs and assume me to know. I'm flattered by your assumption, but I'm not that brilliant!

[A.L.]

Psychology, mathematician, engineer, scientist. That's all I got.

[KalebX_]

think caring

[A.L.]

Therapist. Nurse or doctor of some kind.

[KalebX_]

I am studying my Nursing :)

[A.L.]

Nursing? What are you majoring in?

[KalebX_]

Dementia and metal illness

[A.L.]

Ah, nice. I've had family with that and it's difficult to handle with someone you're close to. But I'm glad there will be more nurses in that area.