She Loved Him First.

In desperate need of my first love. How I miss him.

This Distance is blinding,

the Pain isn't fading,

the Mercy repeats,

but she's the one to blame.

Each scar is different.

They all have a reason why.

With each blow, they prod

every ones memory.

With a wonder of why

shes so Beautiful.

They end up questioning

her smile,

considering its a morose.

Walking high.

Her limits are stretched.

They ask, 

she awns with lies.

Followed by the common

stupidity of the human race,

they believe.

Shes a creature only I can fathom.

A divine soul trapped in the realms

of insanity.

She grieves with dedication.

She loved him.

He left her.

Shes an ensconcing element 

that has yet to reach her 

full bloom.

Her structure is still fragile,

as well as her heart.

The silence is ceased.

To with stain her sanity,

she mourns.

The life she's in has caused terrible things.

She wears his tags.

Caressing the chain.

Traces over the engraved lettering.

She finds her strength to grasp 

the stars and clench the stripes.

Her fingertips record the seams.

She falls to her knees 

with a silent scream.

No more can she withhold

her loves losing.

Gripping the Letters he 

wrote her.

enunciating each word he scratched.

Watching her tears smear the words.

Cant come to an understanding

of why he had to go.

He has his wings.

He sores through her heart,

and lands beside her.

Not in front of or behind.

He carry's forth her heart. 

She know his place.

I am the creature everyone questions.

I fathom all the events.

I shed my tears for what they're worth.

More then the finest diamonds.

More then my own life.

They burst before they hit the ground,

as they slide down my face.

streaking my make-up.

I stand corrected.

I mourn no more.

I envy the actuality 

he's in the preferred place.

Yes I Still squeeze the silence

by whispering discrete howls 

within the night.

I do know that hes leaning forth,

to land a kiss on my cheek,

erasing the tear.

I raise my Flag each morning in 

honor of my dear solider.

My Darling is within the deepest

parts of my soul,

For I loved him first.