Voices in My Head

A Poem by Kaity Bea

once again, a poem i wrote a very long time ago

There's yelling in my head so loud,
I'm struggling but I can't get out,
They suffer cry and weep,
They're in my dreams and everywhere when I sleep,

There's a mocking laughter in the air,
I'm the only one that can hear it and it's not fair,
It follows me where ever I go,
It tells me that I've sunk so low,

All these things come together to pull me farther away,
I can't see the light anymore and one voice sayd it's okay,
One voice above the screams and laughs tells me that everything's fine,
That's the voice that I can hear all of the time,

There's a happiness inside me that I can't catch,
I try to hold on but I can't hack,
There's a laughter inside me that mocks my pain,
Everyone else's happiness as become my bane,

All these things come together to pull me farther down,
I can't see anything anymore but I can feel everyone else's frown,
They're disappointed in the life I've lead,
But I don't care all I can hear is that bad voice inside my head,

I'm sick of trying to be what I want to be,
I pulled myself into a life of make believe,
But I'll keep up this little game,
While the one voice inside my head keeps telling me to be ashamed,

And all these things come together to make me who I am,
And I'm sorry but what you said I can't understand,
So please be patient because of the voices in my head,
I'm trying to block them out and live my own life instead.