Dwelling in Darkness

Hidden away in deep depths of despair,
searching for strength, security and love.
And for some comfort I search for near,
but I find hope in no one, not even the God above.

And I wander aimlessly in my hopelessness.
I continue to look for the love for which I long.
But I do not want to feel the pain, though I accept I am loveless..
And with this eating at the back of my head, I cannot be strong.

It is as if someone has stolen me away in the night,
and locked me up in their man-made cage.
I am like a little girl filled with fright,
and standing alone on a brightly lit stage.

And like lone tides who search for a shore,
I look for my landing but find none.
So I think to myself that I should not live anymore,
and that I should accept my eternity alone.

With this I cry and wail when I am supposed to sleep.
I wish to drown when I am to wash,
and I wish to choke when I eat.

I see not one friend when I open my eyes.
My life is like a window unopened that I watch,
Knowing that it is impossible for me to go outside.
And yet I still live on, pain filling me completely.

Reviews

[Blue]

I feel you, Kaitlyn. I love the imagery used here.

"I am like a little girl filled with fright,
and standing alone on a brightly lit stage."

Overall, this poem is well-written.