Late Night Lament

All of it had been for you.

The smiles, the tears, why I had pulled through.

For years on end I waited for truth-

And none of it ever came.

A little girl, lost in love, confused.

I cried myself to sleep, I dreamed, and refused.

I'd never give up, I'd never leave- I couldn't.

I wanted you.

The days had passed like months.

Nights were awfully lonely.

I had no one to talk me to sleep.

I felt sick in my tummy.

And the nightmares had started.

It was hard to breathe.

I looked for answers, but there was nothing underneath.

The scars had come back, I hid them with sleeves.

I missed you.

The pain wouldn't leave.

I pushed them away and smiled despite.

No one else knew what I dreamt of at night.

I'd sit all day on my loss of my love-

But no one knew you were on my mind.

My stomach churned and my heart dropped.

I hated my life and that yours had stopped.

You were my everything though you were nothing.

And yet still, I wait for a return.

Oh, my love, how I yearn...

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[PoeticSorcery]

it'd be nice if when we feel this way, we felt we'd grown stronger from the pain, and endured, but more often than not we only end up feeling worse for wears as the saying goes.