Never

I shall never know

If your eyes are blue or brown.

I will never see

If your face is thin or round.

Nor could I imagine

The color of your hair.

So many questions-

It all seems so unfair.

I will never know

If you'd be a little girl or boy.

I will never get to see

Your favorite food or toy.

I could never guess

What your first word could have been.

I will never get to meet

Your very first forever-friend.

I will never get to see

the loss of your favorite thing.

I also, will never know,

What that favorite thing could be,

Never will I hear

You cry during the night-

Or feel relieved when

You finally close your eyes.

None of these things 

Were ever meant to be...

Because, my little one-

You left a little early.

But I will always remember

How it felt to wake at night.

How my dreams reflected my excitement-

And never, ever fright.

I will always have

The stretch marks on my skin.

Just like I will always know

How it felt to have you within.

Never shall I forget

How happy it felt to have you.

Even if your father and I....

Will never get to meet you.

I only hope you know

That we've always only loved you.

4-19-16