What My Heart Says, That My Mind Can't

The gibberish in my head,

 

doesn't even makes sense right now.

 

All I know is I just want to write.

 

And I want to write about you.

 

You, everything about you.

 

Your name and how it sounds so beautiful,

 

in my mind,

 

in my ears,

 

in my heart.

 

Even when people say that you’re not,

 

the way you were with me,

 

it was beautiful,

 

unique,

 

perfect.

 

And you’ll never know that.

 

Because I was always afraid to tell you.

 

I was always afraid to tell you many things.

 

And now that I do,

 

now that I want to say that ‘I love you’,

 

in many and every different ways,

 

do I find you gone.

 

Now that I call for you in sleep,

 

in mindless waking,

 

and in the hopeful in between,

 

that you’re no longer here.

 

I miss your voice.

 

I miss how it made me happy.

 

I miss it saying how mine,

 

make you calm,

 

make you happy…

 

…make you mine.

 

 

 

I love you.

 

Those damn three honest words.

 

I love you.

 

Please hear it somewhere in your heart.

 

I love you.

 

Please say it too.

 

I’m in love with you.

 

I said those words.

 

I’m in love with you.

 

Words I will never let myself,

Let you hear again.

 

Will you be mine?

 

Words I should’ve never let myself say.

 

Be mine again.

 

Words that should never be born.

Never.

 

 

 

… What I wouldn't do…

 

… To become yours again?

 

… What I wouldn't do…

 

… To want to see you?

 

… What I wouldn't do…

 

… To want to hold you?

 

… What I wouldn't do…

 

… To want to kiss you?

 

… What I wouldn't do…

 

… To reach you?

 

… What I wouldn't do…

 

… To make you understand?

 

 

 

… But what would I do…

 

… To stop loving you?

Author's Note

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