Anything But Sober/ To The Brim

drank too much

Sometimes

There's a light in my chest 

It fills the empty hole I've been meaning to heal all this time 

It kindles is arms around my lungs 

burning every last drip of intoxication out of my body

It lift the weight off my chest 

Rubs the rust off my lungs 

So they don't feel like broken contraption  no longer needing to break through in order to breath

It's faint

Like the montage of memories after one sip too many I only recall the empty bottle, the empty street, and an empty stomach but this light sometimes can fill all three of these

It's more than muffled train track and click clack crunching glass under rubber shoes 

It's more than a love with expiration date one day fade away tattoo 

It's more than bottom of an empty bottle reflection, burnt soot filled fingertips, and ruffled clothing

It's not being buzzed or drunk or high or in love 

It's something that makes me consider apologizing for all the wrong fingers I interlocked with and all the wrong mouths that got a taste of my bittersweet alcohol and weed stained breath all the time I wasted looking for love in someone else looking for something to feed their hunger it makes me consider apologizing for noticing it sooner and feeling like a till-the-last-drop-maybe- the-pain-will-stop kind of girl 

when really 

There's a light in my chest 

You see it feeds a hunger I've been meaning to hide all my life 

I call it hope 

and maybe 

Just maybe 

It will fill my empty bottle of a heart 

To the brim 

Reviews

[Everett DeValle]

This is Life...I love the journey you put your readers through to feel what you feel....And drinking alcohol is no good especially mixing it with 'weed'...but 'weed' alone can be uplifting and medicinal...so smoke weed or better yet edibles and stay single lol jk...but that advice alone is worth more in its weight in gold. :)

[Cat]

LOL thanks !

[Everett DeValle]

Welcome. :)