Never There

How can I ask for redemption

when I used you as bargaining chip to

level out the universe within me? 

Selfish I am. 

You have always been my world.

The first moment I saw you 

darkness receded from the walls.

The walls collapsed.

Life became drenched in light.

The warmth you emitted 

transformed me.

But, just like the flickering 

Wick of a candle 

Nothing lasts forever,

I burnt down to a cinder.

You, like you always do, continued to shine. 

My darling I tried so hard. 

Equilibrium never my forte.

Everyone began speaking

all at once. 

Imagine that, 

a party of personalities

each demanding something 

in their own way, 

from me, who had nothing left to give.

Not one of them listened to my pleas. 

With all the conundrum

somebody left the door open,

darkness came laughing himself back in.

Like an unwanted visitor, 

he stayed - 

even when I begged though tears lacquered in 

regret of what was to come,

he sat perched in his leather recliner 

grinning the smile of a man who already knew 

- he had won the day.

You are the first star in my every evening. 

Forgive me darling, 

you have the fortitude to keep going. 

Promise you will share your light 

with all that cross your path 

yours is a gift of strength 

and this world needs people 

whose heart knows no limits, 

crosses all boundaries without even a 

glance in the backward direction.

Shine on my darling, 

And don’t you ever look back,

for I was never there. 

Reviews

[Einstein Noodle]

man! so tragic ...and your closing a final confession ..oh how we do use each other .. i read somewhere a bit of a while back ... maybe it was Kahlil ... don't be upset when others disdainfully use us ... because times come when we will do it ourselves ... forgiveness is a little easier ... i feel the love in this as well ...and regret ...with such a simple request ... to listen .. be listened to ..lots of "stuff" in this one KW! really has me thinking ... listening is soooooooooo important eh!?
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