My Last Teardrop - For You

it was a naive mistake 

trying in vain to push away the pain 

 - of you 

the memory of you re-enter’s too easily within ....

a lyric sung, only for us 

a photo encapsulating purest devotion

the aroma of you brewing fresh coffee in the morning 

a glimpse of receding sun, ’no sunset is the same’ you said

fabric brushing against my skin, you always were so close

the indulgent taste of our favourite desert shared one-spoon

it is all too easy to think of you

tightness grasps my inner 

encapsulating my outer 

thinking of you

alone

desperate to escape the dark halls 

that were once so brightly illuminated

next to you

a familiar wetness in my eyes

last one, last one

I shall allow you this one last tear 

I promise you, last one 

our love was like a waterfall after the monsoon

your tear cascades away leaving my vision

I inhaled your sweet affections 

now acridity greets my every turn 

as the liquid pearl runs down my nose

like the desert winds combining 

our essence intertwined in a unity returning us home

the sands of time have deemed me empty and barren

as the salty-drop etches across my desolate unkissed cheek 

your kisses! Oh!

the touch, the taste 

manna from heaven 

a cornucopia 

you said ‘I am here to satiate you’ 

you never did 

you always left me begging for more

.... of you

as the tiny bead of sadness crosses my lips 

you taught me how to view life with a child’s eyes

to sing, to laugh, to joke with life

introducing me to 

a new wonderment with each passing moment 

I sense your infectious smile 

it warms my now unused heart 

as the last morsel of you journeys across the flesh on my chin 

just like when you traversed across my body 

teaching a rare, unmasked devotion 

not many experience that place, the higher plane, together

a privileged gift between us  

a burst 

an explosion 

a momentary unity 

you, me and the everywhen 

... nothing was ever meant to last 

the night breeze greets my face 

allowing me to I trace the trail of your tear 

our brief twinkling of love 

in a world that only moves forward 

I wait, feel 

time to accept the all 

thank you for your time with me 

you reminded me to grow

now it’s time for me to let you go 

and in my final exhale 

shared with you 

your tear drops

and now I say 'goodbye my love' 

Author's Note

I am trying to encapsulate the feeling of loss and learning that it is ok to pass through it, feel all the emotions that you need to, all of them, learn accept them as a part of you, and know that it is ok to feel hard and deep. Then remember to always move forward in the beautiful expression of life that we all are ...

your thoughts - oh yes please X

Reviews

[Willard Wells]

There does come a time with loss, to admit it is the end take inventory of your emotions and move on. A beautifully sad tale of a great love lost. Sometimes in a relationship one person is more in the moment of the relationship and the pain is greater and more unexpected in parting.

Great writing young lady. Well done.

[KWP]

thank you my friend - yes it's a hard one - a big life lesson - none of us can escape X

[Willard Wells]

BTW. I saw the title of this pop up again and realized how much I like it. :)

[wordman]

every thing we do in life has a reason and all our encounters will always be a special time
and yes nothing is meant to last !

[KWP]

I couldn't agree with you more .. X

[jacob erin-cilberto]

we do pass through it, but we never forget...this reminds me of my friend, Paula...it has been 31 years since she died...but i still think of her all the time...but after all these years, i am able to do that with a smile...

this poem really moved me...so close in association. especially the inner/outer part.

j.

[KWP]

Hey Jacob - Happy New Year to you - thanks for your thoughts - it's been a while for any kind of written words for me XXX