My Last Teardrop - For You

it was a naive mistake 

trying in vain to push away the pain 

 - of you 

the memory of you re-enter’s too easily within ....

a lyric sung, only for us 

a photo encapsulating purest devotion

the aroma of you brewing fresh coffee in the morning 

a glimpse of receding sun, ’no sunset is the same’ you said

fabric brushing against my skin, you always were so close

the indulgent taste of our favourite desert shared one-spoon

it is all too easy to think of you

tightness grasps my inner 

encapsulating my outer 

thinking of you

alone

desperate to escape the dark halls 

that were once so brightly illuminated

next to you

a familiar wetness in my eyes

last one, last one

I shall allow you this one last tear 

I promise you, last one 

our love was like a waterfall after the monsoon

your tear cascades away leaving my vision

I inhaled your sweet affections 

now acridity greets my every turn 

as the liquid pearl runs down my nose

like the desert winds combining 

our essence intertwined in a unity returning us home

the sands of time have deemed me empty and barren

as the salty-drop etches across my desolate unkissed cheek 

your kisses! Oh!

the touch, the taste 

manna from heaven 

a cornucopia 

you said ‘I am here to satiate you’ 

you never did 

you always left me begging for more

.... of you

as the tiny bead of sadness crosses my lips 

you taught me how to view life with a child’s eyes

to sing, to laugh, to joke with life

introducing me to 

a new wonderment with each passing moment 

I sense your infectious smile 

it warms my now unused heart 

as the last morsel of you journeys across the flesh on my chin 

just like when you traversed across my body 

teaching a rare, unmasked devotion 

not many experience that place, the higher plane, together

a privileged gift between us  

a burst 

an explosion 

a momentary unity 

you, me and the everywhen 

... nothing was ever meant to last 

the night breeze greets my face 

allowing me to I trace the trail of your tear 

our brief twinkling of love 

in a world that only moves forward 

I wait, feel 

time to accept the all 

thank you for your time with me 

you reminded me to grow

now it’s time for me to let you go 

and in my final exhale 

shared with you 

your tear drops

and now I say 'goodbye my love' 

Author's Note

I am trying to encapsulate the feeling of loss and learning that it is ok to pass through it, feel all the emotions that you need to, all of them, learn accept them as a part of you, and know that it is ok to feel hard and deep. Then remember to always move forward in the beautiful expression of life that we all are ...

your thoughts - oh yes please X

Reviews

[Mary Swingler]

I apologize for not honoring your request sooner. I am truly blessed to have read and been able to critique your writing.
That was perfection you penned in your excelling narrative. The words and lines harmonized so artistically to reflect the deep love and passion you experienced.
Your words paint an emotional masterpiece of the love you shared.
The poignancy of your lost joy is captured by your similes, your repetitive and descriptive words and phrases.
You express the sadness you feel with eloquence. Your poem becomes a catharsis, which gives you the strength to say goodbye.
I love the generous heart that you have, because you appreciate the gift you were given.
Thank you for sharing yourself with us.
a fellow writer

[KWP]

what a lovely review - thank you! and even lovelier in the meeting of you X

[Mary Swingler]

It will be a blessing getting to know you.

[yesidid]

i kinda like what that blues man said about running his a*s off
but he ain`t your type,i got money

[elwood blues]

that`s right honey ! run his a*s off

[KWP]

ha ... goneski !

[elwood blues]

i am available,looking for a sugar momma !

[KWP]

that's nice to know - but I am not looking for any dependents - keep the search alive my friend :)

[elwood blues]

i will help raise them 3 kids

[KWP]

you got cash ? I'm high maintenance ? I mean I got cash but would prefer to use yours

[elwood blues]

i am a good sucker ! no cash

[KWP]

well that's a bugger - - like a real bigger bugger - - it's rather unfortunate that my split personality doesn't tolerate suckers - - make me go a bit weird and crazy they do - - come back with cash ??

[elwood blues]

i got about 3 dollars in my piggy bank,i can get a job ! and for you babe i will get me one

[KWP]

three bucks eh? hmmmm - worth considering I suppose - although I am very very high maintenance

[elwood blues]

got to go sweetie,but i will be back for more !

[KWP]

to get a job I hope .....

[R Smith]

I absolutely love this, it has so much to offer and if you were trying to speak of loss and learning then everyone should read this and learn as you have done, one of the most remarkable poems I have ever read and your moving forward is guaranteed because you can express so well how to learn and move on, genius! Bossette you're the best :)

[KWP]

you oh so lovely Boss ... and yeah what you said was what I was aiming for - so SNAP X

[Einstein Noodle]

well ...i think you accomplished what you set out to do ..its almost an encapsulated short story ... several chapters long ... i remain an optimist at heart and so i appreciate the positive ending ... i was fascinated how the tear traced the speakers face for me ..almost as a painter's brush across a canvas ... i have to say it is not my favorite of yours .. tips a little too love lorn for me .. but there are a whole lot of words and phrases and lines that stand out for me ... personifications ... i am reminded of this:

i had a friend in the early 70's married to the sweetest and most lovely "hippie" woman i have known ..and he was her "hippie" man ... we were all part of the "Jesus" movement and attended the same wild church .. she left him suddenly it seemed ..ran off with a motorcycle guy plus gang .. (true story) .. that young hippie man went off the edge ... he was one of the most calm and centered guys i knew back then ..but love wasted him bad .. he did recover after several weeks in a hospital actually .. wonder where he is now ..wonder if he ever shed that final tear :) glad your back from vacation KWP! always a treat to read your stuff!
E.

[KWP]

i have to say it's not my fave either - but I was experimenting with expressing thought and emotion in an overall metaphor of a teardrop - I have lead a fortunate life and have not lost anyone so dear or close to me yet - I was sifting through the motions on this one

that is a sad story of your friend - that woman sounded very cowardly to off and run like that - but then she may have also been a true hippie in the sense of needing to be free - but well, respect should always be offered I feel - thankfor your thoughts E - Love ya X

[Einstein Noodle]

:) ..................

[samparks,sam]

life is sweet dreams
live it in sweet feeling
nothing to is last in life
every day start with new sweet feelings

[hardeep sabharwal]

Brilliant, I lost in your words, and you wrote it so beautifully, thanks for writing such a work

[andrew mitchell]

I hope this write took awhile to compose KWP . Cos this is just brilliant, the flow. the narrative when read, the imagery. Class Class Class all the way! What a bench mark you set in the furthest reaches of the stratosphere! :):):)

[KWP]

Actually it didn't take long at all - I was just following a train of thought with something I had been idling on for a couple of days - but I must thank you cos I have been beating myself up about my lack of writing skills of late and you seem to have restored some faith X

[andrew mitchell]

Now I've lost mine on restoring yours:( "Not long at all!" you say! 2 days in the new year I'm feeling already unlucky! ;) What a write KWP:):) What a writer you are! :):):)

[KWP]

Thanks - you make a good Poet Personal Trainer :-)

[andrew mitchell]

hahahaha Thank you dear KWP:)

[Inject Positivity]

Every loss leaves our heart torn apart but to learn the lesson from that loss and move on is the true meaning of life.....Its hard to forget those memories but thats the rule of life......Great to read you writings again dear mam....KWP=TALENT....Brilliant as always......Thumbs up!!!!!

[KWP]

ha! thank you my friend and wishing you the best for the new year X

[Valentine]

You managed to express many of my thoughts over the past 2 1/2 years. Brought fresh tears to my eyes.
I know moving forward is just a part of the healing process. For me, I never want to forget all of the good times...but I long to forget the unknowing pain filled eyes he had at the last when he did not even know who I was. I still can see his panic...pain filled not knowing eyes. Valentine

[KWP]

Sending so much love dear V. This kind of pain, mixed with the strongest of love is the hardest of all I feel ....