LOST IN TIME

Waited to be bigger

when I could so decide

Memories sadly trigger

love that would divide

childhood spent in sadness

wilted on the vine

circled blackened madness

answers never mine.

 

Wanted to be better

than any dream inside

Truth that never let her

have a place to hide

Fists used  - no forgiveness

tried beating out the crime

and pain did bear a witness

there was not a time.

 

Wondered why you did it then

asked, not answered still.

Time and time and time again

Answers never will

Undo the pain, give back the life

Lessons lost, held fast remain

frozen images - years of strife

Are etched into my brain.

 

Why would I forgive you?

Stolen innocence sublime

No excuses would ring true

This question lost in time.

You'd not the right to damage

hearts given softly died

 dignity to manage...

 

 

Now kindly step aside.

 

 

 

 

Kath Nehls

1/18/08

 

 

Reviews

[Lydia Shutter]

There is deep emotional scarring between the lines of this powerful poem, Kath. I can feel the pain of an innocent child....I want to hug her and tell her everything will be okay. I want to answer the questions for her and tell her that her parents are disturbed people and that she is okay. It is not her fault. How tragic the emotional scars left by some parents. Still, the last line of this poem is so empowering, "Now kindly step aside." Dignity restored! Very well written and touching. lydia

[Ken Simm.]

No reason, no excuse. violence is the resort of the incompetent. Incompetent in their own lives. You know I know. And incompetence grows with history. It takes a choice to be made and you have made the right one. Deep, vital, shocking and on your part filled with wonder.

[Daisy]

this seems a painful experience here that you write. childhood and innocence is something we all get taken away like our comfort toys when we are babies. I don't think we really get time to warm into adulthood, it's just suddenly there and we have to deal with it. you tell the story with great dignity although I feel sad I think writing this may help your dealing with the past. x

[fireblossom]

This is touching but more importantly it is healing for you. I am happy you were able to write this or better said to share this.

All the best.

[Phil Sanders]

Powerfully written ........tremendous emotion again ...

[Emily B]

Such a feeling write. The anger is so strong it could almost march off the page. Strong words.

[Murphy]

This is very sad, Kath. As always, you have expressed yourself well. I'm at a loss for words on this one... would a hug and a silly smile do? :~)

[Angela H.]

You write the kind of writing I enjoy most - from deep space, not just clever verbal tricks. (Although I admire that, too). Spinning art from the webs of pain that we can get unwittingly caught in does give us back our power; can even make the pain meaningful. I think this is the path of healing. Nice write.

[[untitled]]

Questions and no answers...happens all the time, but as you say in the last line, dignity remains as you step aside. A flowing poem with excellent words and rhythm.

[Amor-de-angel]

Wow an amazing piece with a great ryhme, sadness at the subject but to find oneself from that is the best part.
A wonderful piece of writing.

[A.J. Smith]

This is a great piece, Kath. As we've (I think) shared before, we value the old-fashioned notion of rhyme; I think it takes extra creativity and effort to achieve both that and to tell what needs to be told. I applaud you for your wonderful results. I particularly like the last two stanzas of your poem, and your final line is just tremendous. I often wonder how much of a poet's writing is based on real life experience (as opposed to a wonderfully creative and empathetic imagination). If any of this is based on personal experience, Kath, my heart goes out to you.