Life without you

A poem about a very special someone in my life, that I don't know the existence of

What is life,
Life is but the breaths counted between birth and death
The platonic rise and fall off a chest
For without life there could be no death
At night I set the table for me and you
I don't eat, I haven't even met you
So I just drink for two,
I drink away thoughts, memories never begotten, hopes , ambitions , observe the hell I live in
This is life
For me, no reprive, no release
Just deceit , I promise myself, someone will fill the other seat
But I fear her and I will never meet
So I sit and drink , and I dream
I hope to feel a love so real, I fall over and over like a basket in a ferris wheel
But I feel
Alone,
Most in common with my phone
Dead
No charger , no energy
I swear who ever you are
your my electricity
What is life but breaths counted
Life is chaos no doubt about it.
But this life is nothing
Without her next to me
I am the sun, she will be the world next to me
Without her Im just a star
Solitary, forgotten from afar
Some day I will tell you
You are my world
And you will know that you are
Because you will know that I'm your star,
I'll rise for you,
Burn bright for you
Enlighten you
Turn the dark into light for you
Late at night I will fall for you
Who ever you are ,
Just know I'll give my life for you
For what is life,
Without a reason to guide you
And what the fear of death with no one beside you
So I swear to love you
Because life is just a breath without you