Suicidal Thoughts

Needs progress, first draft

Am I a coward for not tying the noose?

Am I a coward for pulling the trigger, without a bullet in the barrel?

Am I a coward for living day to day?

Am I naive to believe that tomorrow will be better?

Am I stupid to think my life isnt all downhill?

Should I just give up? Give up my hope,

my love, my faith. Should i just

throw in the towel? Say, bye bye,

night night, i love you

I'm sorry?

The dark clouds float in and hide the sun,

causing the darkness to come, the 

shadows creep up on me, I close my eyes like a child. 

Afraid of what might be lingering in the darkness. 

I run toward my picture perfect life, 

a blur pixelated photograph in my mind. 

But i run towards it unknown at what faults are in the reality.

Because i have to keep searching for the sun. 

Even if it would be easier to give up.