Substance Abuse

You laid it down before me 

Stuck the dollar up my nose

Got me breathing fast

Had me feeling trashed

One dose had me down

One hit and I begged for more

One more hit

One more kiss

One more line

One more night

Until my body went cold

Laced with poison

You deceived me

Lied about what you sold

And now I can't shake this crave

I can't shake this pain

I can't shake you from my brain

Pinned against a wall

Wrapped tightly around you

Holding onto a drug

I was forced to use

Screaming and sobbing

Begging you to stay

One more hit

One more high

please please please

Don't go away

Shaking like a junkie

Forced to need you

Offering no rescue

Just a quick hit

One bump

And you're gone

Leaving the crime scene 

All to me

And an addiction

To reliving senseless tragedy

One hit

I close my eyes and replay

The horror in my head

One more hit

Every night

Every morning

Ever free moment I get

One more hit

All that was unwanted

And all that was unsaid

All those hours of you in my bed

One more hit

Left reeling

Left feeling

Again

Like the fault was mine

One more hit

And I'm tired

So so so

tired

This all too real

Paralysis demon

My all time terror

That will never go away

One more hit

Over and over

On loop

One more hit

Forever

Until I'm dead.

Author's Note

As always, please leave your comments and critiques! Love always!
Hope <3