My Body, My Mind

"I don't feel real/I wish I wasn't real/Nothing makes sense" TW: SA

Locking up my body

Speeding up my mind

Frozen in the bed you made

While the head you infected

Continues to rewind

And replay

The tape

Seeing through someone else's eyes

My body, my mind

I'm controlled by contradictions

But I can't help breaking down

A robot going through the motions

A child feeling all too much

I don't feel real

I wish I wasn't real

Nothing makes sense

Can't make sense of

My body, my mind

The only thing I feel

Is handprints like hot irons

A mouth infused with heroin

Branding my skin

Clouding my head

My body, my mind

It is all too much

My mind hitting hyper speed

While sitting perfectly still

Acting as a blank slate

Like I'm far too real

But could disappear at any moment

I don't exist in time

And the world is spinning too fast

My breathing is heavy

But I'm floating far away

Desperate to escape

My body, my mind

My heart used to be worn on my sleeve

My thoughts straight as arrows

But that day desecrated hallowed ground

Set fire to sacred shrouds

Left me bound but undone

Coiled yet unwound

Wishing I could feel fine

But I lost

My body and my mind

Author's Note

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