Tribute to the Martyr

"She should thank me for the war that I endured. So he could become a better man... if he even can"

You should be thanking me

I should be showered

in heaps

in gardens of flowers

The most magnificent 

violets, roses, lilies, and carnations

you can find

You should give me

a goddamn parade

for the hand I stayed

on your social execution

Because I haven't ruined

the reputation of a

Promising Young Man

You should be groveling at my feet

for my forgiveness

For being the test subject 

to your awful sciences

I was poked and prodded

Dissected and dismissed

Nothing but a sheet wrapped around me

and your lying kiss

As you left for the sure thing

I split in two a cried

It was only then you realized

that a change should be made

But not for me

No

A trade

For her

She should be

on her knees before me

Giving me blessings

and praising me like a saint

For without my passions

and impressions on him

He would have treated her

exactly the same

She should be saying prayers in my name

For the shame I bore 

of being 

Overdramatic

Desperate

Easily lured

She should thank me for the war

I endured

So he could become 

a Better Man

...

If he even can

You should be thanking me

Or at a minimum

Give me an apology

Author's Note

This is my first post and I welcome any reviews or comments!

Love <3