Speechless Suit

Take a look in the mirror, boy

Don’t fumble the buttons

What is it that you think you’re getting prepared for?

It’s more than a suit today

Or perhaps it’s less

But that really doesn’t matter

Now does it?

 

Just a suit

And you live in a dream world

A grandiose one at that

But still only a dream world

Where everyone has their suits

Their smokes and their hats

Which they courteously remove at the entrance

 

Get the smoke out of your eyes

And wake up

This isn’t some interview that you can dream through

This is something different

There is no wedding here

But it is a celebration

If you can see through the tears

Hence all the flowers

 

“It doesn’t look like her..”

Is what she said

And I can’t really disagree

“They could barely apply the makeup,

Her skin was so fragile…”

Yeah I noticed how it wasn’t in the creases of her closed eyes

But I need to focus

Because

 

Because I haven’t been able to focus all day

I’ve just been listless and wandering

Until we were late and I was squealing through

The intersections

Just to make it to the mortuary on time

 

Just a suit
And it can serve so many purposes

It can make you feel presentable

Like someone may want to hire you

It can make you feel like a mobster

Ready and willing to extort

Or it can highlight a burden

 

One that just gets heavier as the day wears on

Second by second it bloats

And I wouldn’t trade it for the world

But it still doesn’t change the fact that

I have to say something

And I haven’t been able to write

Anything that would do justice

To the person we have lost

04/10/2013

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Reviews

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I am in tears. This is just such a moving piece of writing, just such a piece of soul in words, and just so heartfelt that I am in absolute awe of the way in which you've conveyed the intensity of your irreparable loss. I can sense how precious the person was from every word and every line. May the universe grant you the resilience you need to face your grief. Am extremely sorry for your loss.