For God's Sake

I’ve been stripped away

from faith,

from love,

and home.

Lost my place in the house

of the lord

and thrown naked

to the earth.

Learn to walk before

you run, but first you

gotta learn to crawl.

and the first thing

I crawled to

was your arms

for my home.

Now what should I expect

from someone with

more broken bones

than I ever could hope

to break?

For God’s sake

will you, too be like that

God forsaken book?

A good idea gone wrong?

Should I keep turning your pages

to get my hopes up

just to fall again?

God knows I don’t wanna fall again,

But that a*****e finds

every chance he can take.

To push me down

from anything he can find so

the cold earth is my home.

And i know that smoking’s

gonna kill me

someday, but the spark I light’s

so warming.

It makes me forget for a second

that i’m just hoping

you won’t let me fall.

But you lose your grip so often

I have to talk you down from

letting go

every

god

damn

day it’s

exhausting.

And sometimes.

I need a smoke and

I just wanna go home.