The Fear

Hard to describe but everyone goes through this.

I’m afraid to let you in
Like a child fears dark I fear closeness
Ive hidden behind behind this broken smile
Is this me, the real me, the only me?
My mask is slipping
After 5 years you’d think I could tell you
After a half of decade you’d think I’d let you in
But I couldn’t.
Instead I sabotage it, you and I
It’s this fear as to why I tanked two times before
It’s this fear as to when I find someone willing to look past the damage the I turn and run
Afraid of what could happen if I truly let you in
I burn this bridge and stare with child like wonder
When does the cycle end
When can I let you close and stare into the black pools of your eyes.
When can I let you say those three words and truly understand them
When... when does this fear go away

Author's Note

First one in awhile. Let me know what you think.