Broken

When the spirit and heart is broken, one starts rethinking everything...

What broke me?

It wasn't when you screamed at me;
Everyone could hear;
You didn't care.
It wasn't when you said you were done;
Done with me;
Done with us.
Completely done.

It wasn't when the word 'jaded'
was forever branded on my heart;
Now, whenever I hear the word,
my jaw clenches;
My heart bleeds;
My gut twists and tangles
with the memory of the poisonous words
dripping from your lips.

It wasn't when you left me
to grow your seed;
You didn't want me,
but questioned my every move;
You withheld your own honesty
and silently moved about;
Never a question answered.

It wasn't when I waited for days
to see you;
I put off any kind of a life
just to be called yours
only to be told
I wasn't trusted.

It wasn't when I supported
every life decision
only to be left out of yours;
Treated as an intruder
on a dark thought.

It wasn't when you cut me out
of your family;
You knew I no longer had my own;
I lost half of them
over my love
for you;
You did it anyway.

What broke me?

It was when the wind was just right;
The sun was perfectly warm;
Beauty fell all around me.
I leaned over to you to
compliment the day,
but you weren't there.

That isn't what broke me...

It was when the song started playing,
ever reminding me of how weak I am
without you;
Each word reminding me
you are no longer mine;
I am no longer yours;
This was no longer our song.

Oh, what broke me...

Author's Note

It hurts to know that someone may have felt or is feeling this way now, but if it stirs something in you, I feel your pain.

Reviews

[thaleeyaLuna]

What a beautiful yet heartbreaking piece! The emotions on this one are very relatable. I'm sure a lot of people have somehow felt this kind of pain in their lives. Great job on this one!

[iamshadowine]

wow! i could feel the emotions! this is so lovely!!
keep writing :D

[Ry Victoria]

Thank you very much. I have hidden my love of writing for entirely too long and have been through too much to not reach out to others. Thank you for the positivity.