Distraught

I was in love with a lesbian, and at a lesbian bar, when I wrote this.

I want to,
but I was warned at the door.
I must before I die....
However I'm not allowed.
I see her yet...
I must be blind.

WHY!!!
Why must I always hold it in?
I want to reach, hold touch, have a simple kiss....
But I was warned at the door.
I inflict pain upon myself to keep it in,
Does anyone see it....
Does anyone care?
Will it go if I SMILE?
Am I the only one that can see my pain,
my tears,
My hope.....is

Disappearing.


Dedicated to ME, for my pain.
2-18-95 (11:55pm)
Written By Jay Spaan
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