My Day Without You

 

I wake, slowly rolling over expecting to roll into warmth but there’s no one there. I open my eyes with a yawn and it all comes back. You’re gone for the next couple days.

I let out a quiet sad moan, scooting over and curl up in your spot in the bed, holding onto your pillow as I wake up slowly. It smells like you, I burry my face in wishing you were here.

In the quietness of the room a hazy memory comes forward in my mind. You had kissed my cheek, my forehead and with a quiet whisper said you’d be back soon. Why? Why hadn’t I made myself wake up? Just to say good-bye at least.

Too much quiet makes me think more, I was quite independent before you, still am when you’re around so why then, do I feel so clingy, so needy now that you’re gone? I shove the thoughts to the back of my head with a groan and roll onto my back with my usual morning stretch and squeaky groan that I know always makes you chuckle.

 

Dressed for the day, I call a few friends to see if they have plans, they all do so it looks like I have the day to myself.

It’s only 11 in the afternoon as I straighten things around our place, even though there’s not much to straighten, I’m looking for anything to do. I look at the phone at least half a dozen times half hoping it will ring, half tempted to call. The clingy, needy feeling returning, I shove it aside and decide to catch up on some reading, knowing the story will distract me from my thoughts of you.

 

I hear rain start to hit the window, glancing up from my book I look out the sliding glass door onto the balcony, to see the weather has taken a drastic change from the sunny morning I had started out on.

I have put a good dent into my reading, 3/4ths of the way through it with three hours behind me. 3 hours closer to you coming back.

I finally give into the neediness and grab my cell phone, that has almost fallen between the couch cushions, to send a text, only to see with a smile you beat me to it.

“smile, its good for you. <3”

You knew I wouldn’t be able to help but smile at it. My reply is simple and to the point,

“Miss you!! <3”

That will keep me happy for a few hours more, the clingy-ness and needing disappearing for now. I read it a last time with another smile before glancing up to see the rain has picked up getting harder against the window.

I feel myself relax as I watch the rainy grayness out the window. It’s still surprisingly bright out considering the amount of rain falling but I love it. I pull the throw blanket off the back of the couch curling up in it. As a last minute idea I get up and turn on the stereo, for some sound, too much quiet can get me thinking too much. Curling back up in the blanket I feel calm and normal. I feel okay alone.

 

As evening approaches and it gets dark outside, the rain having let up some I decide to order in, sushi rolls. I can see your face wrinkle up in playful disagreement, you would have ordered a pizza that night.

As I place my order, I flip through the channels in hopes of finding something to watch. There isn’t anything so I decide to go through our movies, picking one and putting it in after my food arrives.

 

I walk into our room going to my dresser in the closet, getting a pair of pajama shorts then move to your dresser across the room and at the bottom of your t-shirt drawer pull out your favorite old shirt, the collar a bit ratty with a few small holes here and there. I’m glad now that you never listened to me when I said to get rid of it, I make a note to never bug you about it again as I head to the bathroom. I shower, the hot water relaxing me as the bathroom steams up.

Towel drying my hair, dressed in your shirt and my pajama shorts, looking over I realize our bed looks far bigger than I remember. I hang my towel up and grab your pillow off the bed and go to the living room deciding to sleep on the couch, its not so big.

I lock the front door but leave the curtains open on the sliding glass door as I curl up under the throw blanket. In the quiet I fall asleep with the thought that you’ll be home tomorrow night.

Reviews

[Jamie Fantasy]

This story has a good base and good topic but the writing leaves a lot to be desired. Most of your pieces have a lot of detail in them but this one doesn't. Maybe you were having an off day?

I would suggest going through this when you're in the mood and adding some detail so the reader can feel more of what the character feels. :)