no titleA Story by Leigh1995just writing a dream I had about my dad who died from an over dose on drugs excuse my spelling just more along the lines of venting and telling a story about my life
I see you,
When I close my eyes I see you When I am wide awake I see you But how do I see you? Do I see you driving me home? Do I see you sitting in your chair watching golf? Do I see you talking to to your friends at work? Do I hear you anymore? Do I hear you telling me that I am street smart? Do I hear you praying to the heavens above? I do not hear you, I hear voices telling me you are gone. I hear voices saying that I should prepare my self for you leaving me I hear voices in my mind screaming at me that I did not do enough to help you. I see you sitting home alone struggling to numb the pain you are in I see you lying face down on the floor, bleeding on to the white carpet in your home Dead Cold Alone You try to pull the trigger of the gun that taunts you sitting on the table But you cant You are hurting You reach out for help You reach out for help You are close to breaking You are close to the end You cant take the hurt anymore Instead of taking the hurt You take the pills 1 2 3 4 "Its not enough, I need more" 5 6 7 "Follow the light to heaven" 8 9 10 "Its almost over, this is the end" Something stops you, a noise at the door You go to answer it And when you stand up You drop to the floor Someone came for you But it was to late I see you now dead on the floor I see you laying on the table at the funeral home On the table you lay, stitched up from where they cut you Hands folded, legs together A crisp sheet, white as a feather of a dove Underneath you lay there cold Eyes open Everyone in the other room quite as ca be with nothing to be told I am alone to see you one last time Time for me to say my final goodbye I take a breath and let out a sigh Before I see you, the assistant says "are you sure" I shake my head, an unsure yes She removes the sheet There you are Exposed and unfamiliar Eyes open Mouth Open Skin sinking in around your skull Skin red and burnt To much for me to handle I scream and run out Who was that? I thought That cant me the man I call daddy The man who was addicted to drugs The man who stayed away from me thinking it was him doing me a favor The man who would drink and drive with me in the car The man no one really knew or understood The man who let his demons get the best of him He died He died alone He died with fear in his mind and heart He could not fight his demons His demons broke him apart Life lost to soon Daughter lost her father Two boys lost their grandfather Heaven gained an Angel R.I.P Dad 1.22.19
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