Scared

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What if he gets to close,
what happens when I push him away?
I don’t know if I can deal with losing him…
but I don’t think I can stop it.

Self preservation is what I was taught,
so I don’t want to be the fool once more.
I’ve fallen hard without being caught,
and can’t help but think that I might turn to a chore.

What if I tell to much,
what happens when he finds out my problems?
I don’t know if I can lose another friend…
and I don’t know if I can stop it.

I’ve walked down this path in the past,
and I know how this story ends.
Best friends like us just don’t last,
but I can’t see where this road bends.

I am terrified I’m going to f**k this up,
that I’m going to lose another.
Did I do the right thing by telling him and him telling me?
Or did I screw this up too?

I’m in this now and I can’t believe I trust him,
but I’ve trusted him with all of my heart…
I pray this story’s ending isn’t grim,
and that this is just the beginning of the start.

Author's Note

blech

Reviews

[Ralphy]

Awe, me think you did worry to much. Life is full of chances, even if they haven't worked out that doesn't mean it won't. One of the most cautious things you would best to do is stop saying what your saying, questioning it...finding you is the best thing in life, and you would be best to do such. BTW If it's not mutual what purpose is it.

I know of you, and think other than a slight paranoia, you are a wonderful woman...one that he should like a lot. I find you witty, and full of warming charm...cough, at least to everyone expect me...lmao. Hugs, I wouldn't be so judgmental of yourself...bbr and the ball of white

[~*~Peace Keeper~*~]

I understand how you are feeling...and not all stories end the same way...we just think they do sometimes...its just how are brains work...dont worry so much...i know i say that alot...and i know i do the same thing..we are humans we all do...but we must try and not worry...we don't know whats in the future and how things might turn out...all we can do is just live day by day and make the best of it.
Great Job