this is my first poem

this is my first poem

A Poem by Jordan Varner

this is my first poem
there are a few things you should know about my previous claim

this is not my first poem
this is my first poem 
because while i've written before
there's a certain nuance to the practice and i've gotta keep going
otherwise there will be a lack of knowing
and a lack of growing
and a lack of showing
my so called self professed knowledge
when in reality i really have no idea what the hell i'm doing
or where i'm going

so please believe me on this
my ears are not blind
and my eyes are not deaf
and my heart's not in binds
but i fell off a cliff
and i hit every rock on the way down
like an upside down
merry go round
i blew into this town
quite by accident
so let's turn that frown 
upside down

when i was younger i wanted to be a truck driver
like my dad
but as i grew older i realized the arts suited me better
not because the long nights my father spent away from home affected me
which they did
and not because he was never home
which he wasn't
but because i cannot sit still for very long
i have a bad habit of not knowing where i am
and because there's been at least two times that i have hurt myself falling out of my dad's truck

my mother is an artist
like her mother before her and her mother before her
and although my father was a truck driver, he also loved music
and so i became a whirlwind of the arts
i picked up guitar and i picked up paints
i picked up a pen but that came later

i thought i could write music
which i was awful at at first
i thought i could write stories
which i am still awful at
because i try to be Stephen King
but in reality i'm more like somebody told the writer of Blue's Clues to write a Poe story

and yet here i am trying to write poetry because i guess this is what i'm okay at
and i'm trying to be a musician because that's what i'm okay at
and it's what i enjoy
so just take what you can
and what you have the knowledge to perceive
and believe
and conceive that bit of hope
that spark of joy
that only you can create 
and take it and keep it safe
tucked away in that special place only you know
and never let anyone tell you otherwise

but i digress

let me return to the matter at hand...

this is my first poem

© 2017 Jordan Varner


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