Brown Shoes

hmm hopefully the message is sent

A new day arrives

The bright sun is in the sky

The leaves are green 

The temperatures high

At the door

I put on my brown shoes

And when I come back I take them off

A new day arrives

The sun is in the sky

The leaves are green

The temperature a bit low

I get a call that makes my heart jump

I rush out the house

With my brown shoes

And when I come back I take them off

A new day arrives

The sun, surely, is in the sky

But the clouds cover it

No big deal

I don’t want to leave though

However, a walk would be nice

And so, I put on my brown shoes

And when I come back

A new day does not arrive

It is still night

I get a call that makes my heart drop

Do I rush out the house? 

I stand

And stand

Stand

But I just lie on the couch

After I take off my brown shoes

A deep breathe

Breathe in Breathe out

A new day arrives, and another

Another

Another

But I just stare at my brown shoes

A pint of courage

And my shaking knees

A new day arrives

The sun is in the sky

The snow too

In the window I stare out and back

Both so bleak

But bleak is better than dead

Everything is changing

Everything is so different

The outside

The inside

The colors 

The temperature

But

At least, when I walk out the door

I have my brown shoes

And when I come back I take them off

Author's Note

I’m just curious of how it feels to you