I Dare Not Speak

I feel this way a lot and as I was sitting at the computer text messaging the one who makes my heart beat.. and everything that I want to say to him and ....this came into my mind.

 

I miss you

I hate you

I love you

I want you

I need you

I hate you

You make me cry

You make me smile

You control me

You break me

You make me okay

I hate you

I wait for your call

I dream about you

I can't stop thinking about you

You keep me safe

You break my heart

You make me feel useless

You make me feel free

You make my heart beat

And for that

I hate you

Author's Note

It's pretty rough I know. But I just thought about everything he does to me and this is what came. I realize that just about everything is a contradiction.

Reviews

[ANNA]

Such raw emotions! You are always giving everything heartbeat from your rib cage. I just want to say Thank Fou for letting me see how you face these heartbreaks everyday. I pray that one will come along and make you think of nothig but the one that in front and that will never hurt you daring! This was raw! Thanks you for sharing your beautiful words!

Much love n respect,
Anna

[Mr. Lopez]

The contradictions of love are what make it so difficult to get over and live through. Sometimes it feels as if these wounds will never heal but by writing about it , you are only speeding up this proccess. You have this great gift of expression . Although the piece is rough , so is the subject. Heartbreak can be a very hard thing to cope with , as you know. I pictured you standing on top of a mountain shouting this poem out to the world as i read. I Love the rawness of the piece. Get it out and move on :) Keep up the good work !
Peace