Let the light in

Mother dearest told me I need to write something happy....This is happy...In a way. :P Love you mom! I don't really know if its a poem a story or a biography or memoir so....SORRY!

My voice rings out over the audience, sweet melodic.

My dreams finally fulfilled.

My heart beats to the rhythm of the music, in perfect harmony.

Young faces look up at me in awe, true friends watch me from behind the curtain

Cheering me on.

The chorus bellows out of me, the notes warming my soul.

This is what it feels like when I sing.

I am passionate about my hobby. But there is also a fear somewhere in there, making my breath quicken and my palms sweat.

This fear has betrayed me once. Now no one hears my voice, sees my passion or knows my song.

I am a no body…as I always will be…NO! I will not let myself think that way. THAT is what made me walk out in the middle of that song. That dark thought…

So many of my thoughts are dark…on the outside i'm a smiley bubbly girl with a Kansan accent. But if you get past the shell i'm dark, devious and, though I don’t like to admit it, I am sometimes mean.

Everyone has his or her doubts…I just wish I could get past mine. Break through the dark thoughts and let some light in, so that maybe the grass will grow and the birds will sing again…so maybe I will sing again.

Reviews

[Inkcognito]

We all have fears - they cause us angst, make us see and feel things differently, sometimes fear will cause us to blow things out of proportion in our own minds. Embrace your strengths, believe in yourself, find comfort in your inner confidence - you will soon emerge from the darkness to feel the warmth of sunlight on your face again.
This piece is an outpouring of mixed emotions - achy and heartfelt, a search of self, but, in the end, it really is about hope, the hope that you will find your inner truth and happiness ...just hang on to hope. Remember, nobody is nobody...everybody IS somebody...always!

[Havatara]

It IS happy. In its own way. I like how it's kind of like poetry, but it's prose at the same time. Good job.

[Lilly Negoi]

:) i've been exactly through that feeling when i was playing piano concertos :). and i know how hard it is to resist the temptation to just rise and run away, instead of facing the crowd listening to you. i think what scares the most is actually the silence of the listeners :). the idea conveyed by that silence - the responsibility towards the beauty of the art.
very nicely written :). and thank you for reminding me of myself :).

[Ivy]

Hey girlie! I loved it! I'm amazed at how much emotion you packed in! And I've heard you sing, you've got nothing to be scared of ;)

[Nothing Personal]

Great piece. Break the inner shackles and barriers and come out , Free and sing..The green grass, the blue sky, the growing daffodils, the hyper cardiac birds all await you..I loved the strength you portrayed. We all need it to overcome everything which deters us and move ahead...Thanks Julie..

[roarke]

As much as I might not like to admit it, moms do get it right.....

maybe this piece is an "all of the above" kind of thing....
I think this is the strongest part:
"..I am a no body…as I always will be…NO! I will not let myself think that way. THAT is what made me walk out in the middle of that song. That dark thought…
So many of my thoughts are dark…on the outside i'm a smiley bubbly girl with a Kansan accent. But if you get past the shell i'm dark, devious and, though I don’t like to admit it, I am sometimes mean."

I think you've captured something with this writing, sometimes when we least expect it, from a source or prompt we least expect, something meaningful happens. Keep this one around.

[Short.Nerd]

A very good story! Great job

[Kaitlyn]

I loved reading this. It was very good. :)

[KAREN]

Nicely done! Enjoyable read!!

[Linear]

No body nobody, it is what it is, and you expressed it so well, and i'm sure your mom is very proud of you, because it did start off happy, then sort of drifted into your darker thoughts, still an excellent piece of literary art