She looks out her side
of the car window
not really seeing the white blurs
of Queen Anne’s lace
or here and there
the Blackeye’d Susans
displaying their yellow
petaled plumage and every
one winking at her
In acknowledgment of her secret.
The here and now
is dream-like.
A foreign feeling,
driving along this
highway as she has
countless times with him.
Her disconnectedness is
palpable. She is vacant,
pre-occupied…
her concentration is nil.
The long-buried
essence of her has been
unleashed to hover
somewhere between
heaven and another.
She has hyper-awareness
of recent memories
flooding, sharp and acute,
playing themselves over
and over in her starving mind.
The simple act of a thumb
gently wiping away a tear.
The rough hands and fingers
sweetly caressing her hair.
The utter gentleness
of new eyes gazing
down and deeply into hers.
Seeing absolute love in their depths.
Seeing completely through
to where her soul meets his.
But today..this day..this empty day
She looks out her side
of the car window,
not really seeing the white blurs
of the Queen Anne’s Lace
or here and there
the Black Eye’d Susans
displaying their yellow-petaled
plumage and every one winking at her
in acknowledgement of her secret.