without a trace

I wake up to an alarm

Like every other day

I start getting ready normally

Just like yesterday

 

I go to turn on my phone

To see if I’ve received anything new

That’s when I felt that insane crushing sensation

When I read what I got from you

 

You sent me a long text

A text saying goodbye

A texting saying you’re pulling the trigger

A text I prayed was a lie

 

You wrote of how you couldn’t handle it

How you couldn’t take it anymore

How life was just your living hell

How the stress has rotted your core

 

I’ve got no clue what to do with myself now

I’m really getting tired of crying

If you truly loved me like you said 

Then you wouldn't have left me feeling like I'm dying

 

You ended your text saying it was your time to go

Finishing your last words with an innocent smiley face

You thought you could disappear without anyone noticing

You believed you could leave this world without a single trace

 

Well I’m sorry to tell you but you were very wrongly mistaken

Because as hard as I try I know I won’t forget you tomorrow

You chose to leave this world, leaving me here all by myself

Leave me with the feeling of the most disgustingly bitter sorrow

Author's Note

i wrote this after receiving a text from a very important person when i woke up. in the text, he told me he was about to shoot himself. he told me life was just too much for him to handle anymore. after his ex-girlfriend killed herself, he felt he was the one to blame . i got a text from him later that day telling me that at the very last moment he put the gun down , not wanting to hurt me .

Reviews

[idk]

This is very powerful and after reading the author's note box and finding out this happened, makes it even more powerful. Great job putting real life situations into a poem. I just love it so much

[Bare trees]

The poem could probably use some work. It starts out with rhyme then sways off course and winds up with too many words per line. Other then that, I would agree this is a powerful story in itself regardless of how it's conveyed. You saved someone's life. For that, I'm sure you're a pretty special person.

[Pierre Aberrance]

Errors and rough spots can be forgiven. This piece is, indeed, very powerful, especially for those of us who've experienced this loss first-hand. Trust me.

[emma]

very powerful. i could feel the emotion throughout the whole poem, especially once i read your authors note. the poem flowed easily most of the time, but at one spot i felt it didn't work. "You may have only killed yourself but you’ve left me feeling like I’m dying." it had a few too many syllables than the previous three lines. but all in all, great poem.