Sometimes I wonder...

Sometimes, longingly, I wonder

What it would feel like to be another.

 

Another girl, like me, but better

Who does not hide her soul in a sweater

But wears it, proudly, in her smile,

Not afraid of stares so vile.

 

A girl who dances and sings unhindered,

To the music of her beating heart,

With a natural, carefree fluidity

That speaks of freedom and unending beauty.

 

A girl who does not lock away her deepest desires,

Abandoning them to rot and expire,

But expresses them to the oft-unfriendly earth,

Knowing, in spite of the criticism, their worth.  

 

A girl who tries with all her might;

Who with any challenge will put up a fight;

Because no matter the pain or the hardships, she knows

That there is more to come along life’s rough road.

 

A girl to whom people are drawn like flies,

Whose flame in the heart can never die

And whose gaze, so powerfully, radiates heat

That all lovers and friends lie willingly at her feet.

 

So why, I wonder, can’t I be like she?

Why can’t I of my too heavy fears break free?

Why can’t I, with open arms, embrace

My body, my heart, my dreams, my face?

 

Why can’t I dress as boldly as I desire,

Or do whatever I aspire?

And if the people dare to criticise,

Why can’t I look haughtily into their cold eyes?

 

Why can’t I try with undying grit

And resolve that never shall I quit?

Why can’t I in myself ignite such a flame

That anyone who sees me, for their joy, I will be to blame?

 

The truth, as my mother so often has said,

Is that the only thing I can change is that within my head.

So someday, when I am sick of being me,

I will become this girl, so fearless and free.

 

But for now, I will sit here and longingly wonder

What it would feel like to be another…

Reviews

[Matching Socks]

Love it! :)

I think we all think that, but you have to remember everyone has a story, something that they are not happy about.

Always be you. It's easy yet hard at times. :)
What doesn't kill us makes us stronger. Good piece of writing.

[Julie]

Thank you! :)

[Matching Socks]

My pleasure! :) anytime.

[Ranger Kessel]

hey your writing is good. be yourself:)

[Julie]

Thank you!