Move Past This

-sigh- It's not much, but it will have to do.

to move on.
how easy it is to say.
yet, so hard to do.
move past this.
those words... 
those words have been haunting me for years.
I still have not full grasped this consept yet.
"learn to let go."
they say.
"learn to move on."
he said.
the only one stopping me...
...is me.
just be you.
fully develop.
like a flower, when the frost comes early,
never fully opens.
something you cannot force to open.
move past this.
you can only live once.
I'm not really living,
I am existing.
you have everything.
a boy who loves you,
a promise of a great future.
a family who mostly cares.
just let it go.
move on.
how can you expect him to,
when I am not willing to do the same?
move.
past.
this.
I will etch it into my skin if I have to.
perhaps I should.
it would be a constant reminder.
Everyone has said this.
perhaps it's time now to listen.
perhaps it's now time to bloom.
to extend my wings all the way. 
to finally fly.