Something to be said

An unwritten letter to my Ex Wife

I remember our meeting, was anything but chance

I was the poor boy, you were the queen of the dance

My heart had been hardened by life you'd not known

my soul in-differed by the horrors life's shown

Somehow it worked, this bonding of ours

what was it lured you down from your tower

I'd nothing to offer but still we pressed on

you gave to me art, love's portraits you'd drawn

as years passed by, the life we had made

some of our critics, doubts they did fade

we made the journey, in search of our place

a new beginning, where we'd live at our pace

an empty house we filled with our love

our children's laughter, laughter like the wash from a dove

our life had been made by our own hand 

our struggles were legend in the book of man

The demons I'd hidden so far down below 

began to show surface, a gift I never wanted, on you to bestow

I tried to drown them beneath neon lights

i often wondered about your lonely nights

Making excuses, like "it's what I deserve"

and with every swallow, justice was served

my past came to haunt me with every death

seems I had hidden the me that was left

I said to my mother, I only wish for a smile

seems wishes too fade, after a while

when your tears had eroded my life long dream

i saw it was time, to just leave you be

we went through the motions, and gave it a shot

but even more bitter is all that we got

the lies and deceit, all came to the light

when she called and you saw it was her that night

The day i awoke, to see the friends we'd become

was proof to the knowledge, our days as lovers were done

No one deserves to live life without

the love in their heart, beyond any doubt

the shadows I'd cast on your heart weren't fair

the tear soaked pillow because i wasn't there

All weighed so heavy in this heart of mine

leaving nothing to say but a heartfelt goodbye