Endure (A Bittersweet Eulogy)

We all have two faces. Some more easily shown than others. Some for protection from the world, mine was to protect the world from me.

A part of me has gone

Tragic as it seems

There is no in between

It was either him or me to make a home.

Kept me safe from the world,

then I met that one girl.

I made a bunch of promises, he wouldn't keep

*  Staring at your pictures, cause you're not there

See the way your smile just clears the air

Choices made, to take that away

How can I expect you to stay

The bitterness of pain, realities of life

when facing inner strife

this isn't how I saw it playing out

Thoughts from which I abstained

Guardian some would say

From outside I see

 He only kept the truth from me

Now the time has come to bid farewell, and have a nice day

*

Robbing me of all that I am

Shredding fibers of my worth

Was it your devious plan

To damn me from my birth

So torn on what to feel

Is your dying a parting gift

To let me see what is real

or was it your way to throw me from a cliff

No flowers grace your tomb

Mourning stops with me

My life now what I choose it to be

An angry rose can never Bloom

The future so unsure

I let my Faith return

The rage no longer burns

in His hands, I will Endure