Russian EyesA Story by Judith ReznorThis is based on something that actually happened to me and something... strange.
Do you know the feeling of having a pair of eyes stab right through you? Or have the feeling someone is watching you? Every so often whenever I was in my car by myself, I could feel someone watching me. I would always look to see if there was, but I never saw anything. No cars beside me, no cameras on any traffic lights. Even when I wasn't driving, I could feel someone watching me. The weird thing was, is that it was only when I had just dropped off my best friend, Natalia, at her house, or whenever I was extremely upset when I would feel this way. I had no particular reason why I thought there was someone with me or watching me, because I would always do what was expected from me. I would wake up, go to school, go to work (which Natalia works at as well), go home and do it all over again.
One particular night, I was extremely stressed out from my schooling and work and was getting upset. I decided that I should go take a nap before I had to go into work. I felt like someone was beside me, but I didn't think anything of it since I was the only person home at the time. I went to my bathroom, brushed my teeth, and as I went to put my hair into a ponytail, someone appeared beside me in the mirror and I froze. It was a female with messy auburn hair that had her bangs cut straight across over her eyes, and a dirty, tattered beige and blue clothing covering her. She was just looking at me in the mirror as she raised a small hand and carefully placed it on my shoulder. When I blinked, she vanished without a trace. I shook my head, thinking I was just overly tired from work and school. When I woke up, I went to Natalia's house to go to work with her. I sat in her room as she got ready, and she was telling me about a picture she had painted earlier that week of a woman. She pulled out the painting, and when I saw it, my eyes widened. It was the same woman I saw earlier that day. I told her about what I saw, and as I told her, she looked at me and quietly told me that the woman I saw, was her biological mother from Russia who had passed away several years ago. She told me that she sees her mother as well, and her mother often shows herself in front of people that Natalia is extremely close to and cares about, and has a tendency to watch over them. Chills went down my spine as she told me this; I never experienced anything like that. After a few months, the feeling of her being there went away, and I didn't think much of it. I just thought she would be there when I needed her. I was correct. About a month ago, I was extremely depressed to the point of considering taking my own life. I sat on my bed, thinking of how I would take my life, and that's when she appeared. She was right next to me on my bed, leaning on my shoulder as if she was trying to comfort and protect me. That's when I realized it. Natalia's mother needed me to be there for her. To stay in the world for Natalia and protect her since she couldn't be there. Not just for Natalia, but for my family as well... Now, whenever I feel as if someone is next to me, that it's not just me... it's her mom keeping her eyes on me... глаза
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StatsAuthorJudith ReznorMassillon, OHAboutFirst things first; Judith Reznor is the name I write under. I came up with the name because Judith is a song that I feel describes my past, and Reznor is the last name of a musician that highly inspi.. more..Writing
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