If I Only Could

I want to take back
every soft whisper
that was ever said
between me and you.

We laid on the bed,
talked about future,
so many things that
would never come true.


How much I wanted
things to go somewhere,
but you wouldn't fight -
I can't fight alone.

Distance keeps growing,
your heart is now further,
I cry every night
a soft silent moan.


Why can't you see
you take me for granted,
constant reminders
don't do any good.

And oh how I wished
things to be different.
I'd do it myself,
if I only could.

If I only could.


Now you're not here, and
things look so different -
I was truly blind,
but now I can see.

I thought it was love,
I feel really stupid,
thought you were someone
that you'd never be.


Why couldn't you feel
exactly the same,
what we could have had
would have been so good.

And how did I wish
things to be different.
I'd change them myself,
if I only could.

If I only could.


Guess it is over,
what I thought we had,
although I'm not sure
it did truly start.

I want to feel hate,
want to feel anger,
I only feel pain
of a broken heart.


I'm disappointed
we couldn't go on.
I guess it's just me
or you'd say you would

grant me your heart,
make everything different,
and love me, myself,
if you only could.

If only you would.