Neglected Love

Had a sober thought in a drunken state
Expressing love through sex just to create
A stressful situation that I now debate
Because I just got the text that she thinks she’s late.

I look at my phone and text right back
Defending my naked pride on how I was wrapped
Texting her that this is a plan to get a n***a trapped.
Stomach turning in circles as my heart beats overlap.

Closing my eyes asking myself why
A sexual blessing is such a lustful sin
Am I ready to be a father?
Should i be scared? Should I pretend ?

Neglecting a life with for no reason but shame
All for them to grow up and go through pain.
Text between me and her get personal.
Us both angry and scared wishing this was reversible.

Sitting here thinking about what is to come.
Because I came to the conclusion that I have to succumb.
To the fact that I just had to cum
And now I can’t leave ....

But will I allow myself to be my biggest pet peeve.
A father leaving his son to father another mans lead?
To be hated by the one who shared my genes and the blood that I bleed.
All because I wasn’t a real man and ran away to be free?.

No i will take my role as a father too not my mistake but my miracle.
To the future entrepreneur or doctor , and everything more.
To love to deep down in my core
To hold you until my arms get sore
I will treat you like a king.
You will not be neglected ....never by me

By:Spady♠️