This Will Never Change

I haven't written a poem in over 2 years, so please don't be too harsh..

Here I am

Believing things will change

believing things will be better

will grow

bring happiness to the world.

 

But instead,

I lay here in tears every night

pretending to be happy

when everything is a lie,

 

Hoping, screaming, praying,

that in the end everything will be okay

this pain will go away

and the fairy tale will begin

 

In reality,

that was just a welcome mat

for the new door

beginning to open.

 

Sometimes I wonder why

why me

why do I fall for the stupid tricks

but then stop.

 

Why pity myself

for the mistakes I have made?

I am human

living, breathing, thinking

all the same as everyone else.

 

This pain I have

someone else has to

they are just to afraid to scream it

but in the end

I am to.

 

I am stuck

stuck in a reality I hate

I was caught by the illusion

then it began to fade

more and more each night.

 

and to this day

I still cry myself to sleep

knowing

this will never change.

Reviews

[~*~Peace Keeper~*~]

I like this...I think a lot of people could relate to this very much. The first stanza didn't flow all that well just because of the line "will grow" it jumps to the next line with not much flow. Other than that it was good.

Great Job