Into The Ocean

Things were ok.

I guess…

I wanted to smile, I really did.

But it just wasn’t gonna happen.

I ran so hot and cold with emotions.

But no matter what I said to him I always wanted him around.

He made me jealous, I wanted him to pay only me attention.

Which he gave when I was within arms length.

But he always loved me, and I knew it.

Sometimes I liked to test it to make sure it was still there and suddenly not someone else’s.

I didn’t wanna do that again…

(Sunday, early morning.)

“You know you didn’t have to leave I was just trying to annoy you,” I smiled.

“I know,” he looked at me from his bed.

He gestured for me to lie next to him.

So I did…

He quit playing Tetris on his phone and we turned out the lights.

He got closer.

I couldn’t face him.

But I let him get closer.

“I wanna kiss you,” he brushed hair out of my face and leaned in to settle for my forehead.

I faced him.

“You’re arm is in the way,” I saw him smile in the dark.

I moved my arm…

It was cold.

And he covered me.

I got closer…

Rolling over I placed his hand under my night shirt and on my side.

He enjoyed my skin.

So gentle…

I slid his hand farther up.

[ He now held my breast in his hand.]

And I didn’t want to run. I let him. I was allowing the compassion.

He kissed my cheek and moved closer.

He was so gentle…

Such soft hands for a sculptor.

The blanket lie barrier between us.

“Move closer.”

And I did.

His hands ventured my body, staying with in reason.

I shivered.

He kissed me again.

“What do you want me to do?” he whispered.

- Memory as noted by Charolette.

Foiled: To prevent from being successful. To obscure or confuse. To be cut off at the knees.

Damn love.

Damn love and all its casualties.

I wanted Andrew to see me the way you and Sage apparently see me.

I wanted to be someone’s girlfriend.

Someone’s reason to wake up next to in the morning.

So this was my life.

It was me, myself and I.

- Memory as noted by Jenelise.