Trois

It was Thursday, and I spent the day drawing. That night, I almost gave up. There was no way he was going to log on again, was there? Well, he did, kind of.

Jawsh: hi
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Hey again!
Jawsh: what are you up to?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Uhm, just msn and creeping the net. The usual. XD What about you? Did you have fun at the studio or whatever?
Jawsh: lol sounds like some hardcore fun
Jawsh: i should have probably told you when i said hi, but this is matt...i hacked josh’s msn...don’t tell him

My heart started hammering against my ribs, and I tried to think of what to say.

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : OH
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Well than hey Matt! I won’t tell him XD And oh yes, so much fun. At least I get to listen to some Alibis! Ever hear of them?

That was so lame...

Jawsh: i heard they were pretty good
Jawsh: also that their guitarist is the best looking :P
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Lol really?
Jawsh: yup wouldn’t you agree?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Hmm well I don’t know about that, they’re all pretty good looking to me.
Jawsh: you don’t agree?

YES!

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : LOL Oh come on, that’s not a fair question!
Jawsh: lol i know i’m just joking
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : XD I know.
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Why’d you hack Josh’s msn anyways?
Jawsh: i don’t know lol
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : ...Do you just hack each other’s msn’s all the time?
Jawsh: no
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : LOL Ok then. I’m just gonna pretend I understand XD
Jawsh: lol ok for a second i thought you were going to make me tell you
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping ||: So there IS a reason? Well whatever it’s not important. Do you actually have your own msn?

‘What kind of question was that?’ I mumbled to myself after pressing the enter key.

Jawsh: obviously
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping ||: Ok...
Jawsh: yeaa

I hit myself in the head and laughed nervously. I figured he probably thought I was a freak by now...

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping ||: LOL Wow this is so awkward. Sorry if I freaked you out XD
Jawsh: lol you didn’t freak me out
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : That’s good?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Can I ask you something?
Jawsh: sure
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Ok, well I was just wondering how you remembered who I was?
Jawsh: oh lol
Jawsh: i don’t know i guess you just stood out

‘I stood out?’

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : LOL Is that a good or bad thing?
Jawsh: that depends :P
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : I don’t understand...How did I stand out? You’re the only one that remembered... I couldn’t have stood out that much.
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : You don’t need to answer...I was just curious...

After a couple of minutes of him not answering, I started to panic, but then I remembered that he was on Josh’s MSN, so maybe Josh found out and was yelling at him?

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Matt? Did Josh kill you?
Jawsh: lol no josh is out somewhere

‘Ok, then why the hell weren’t you answering?’ Of course I wasn’t really going to ask that...

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Oh ok! Lol you had me worried there for a second XD
Jawsh: sorry :(

‘Aw...’

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : S’ok...So where’d Josh go?
Jawsh: he went to go find martin i think, or maybe he stopped by at the studio? i have no idea where he went
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Oh, isn’t it kinda late?
Jawsh: no? it’s not even 9 yet lol
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Oops, right. You’re in BC lol
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : That was stupid.
Jawsh: no it wasn’t: P how late is it over there? do you even live on the island?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : LOL it’s 12:41 and no I don’t, I live in New Brunswick.
Jawsh: oh cool
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Yup ^^
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Do you know what might be a good idea?
Jawsh: what?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : I think we should keep in touch! You’re really nice!
Jawsh: lol thanks! i agree 100%
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : So are you just gonna keep hacking Josh’s msn? XD
Jawsh: :P maybe
Jawsh: just kidding i’m going to add you on msn ok?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Lol ok
Jawsh: be right back

10 minutes later, he still wasn’t back, and I was panicking. He probably didn’t even want to stay in touch...I mean seriously, why would he? As far as he knew, I was probably some fan girl who wanted to stalk him (Not that I did).

I gasped when the little pop-up that informs you that you just got an email announced that he had sent one. I clicked on the link and read the following words:
why haven’t you added me back?

Maybe he did want to keep in touch after all. I replied that I never got his add, and that I was going to add him now that I knew what his email was. I added him and smiled when he logged on.

 

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Lol there you are
matt: hi :)
matt: is it late over there?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Not really, why?
matt: just wondering
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Ok? Lol
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : So, are you going to tell me why you hacked Josh's msn, or is it a secret?
matt: are you going to let me not answer?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Hmm
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Probably not. I can blackmail you.
matt: lol with what?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : I can tell Josh you hacked his MSN :O
matt: that’s cold
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : v.v
matt: we can make a deal
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Oh?
matt: if you tell me why it is that you have those lyrics as your msn name, than i might tell you why i hacked his msn

‘What the hell?’

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Because I like the song?
matt: i know girls put lyrics that represent what they're feeling :P

‘Ok, so I don’t know if him knowing that is impressive or scary, but...’

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Why does it matter? It's just a song
matt: it’s just an msn
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Fine. You tell me first though
matt: nope. the deal was that if you told me i would tell you
matt: if you want to know just tell me

‘Might as well just tell him...’

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Fine. Well I met this guy at some concert and yeah I've been thinking about him a lot. So that's why I have those lyrics in my msn name.
matt: what concert?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : That wasn't part of the deal. I told you what I was supposed to, now it's your turn.
matt: another time
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : That's not really fair...
matt: life isn’t fair

‘Ouch, major mood swing...’

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : ...Sorry

And when he didn’t answer for a couple minutes, I started worrying that I had upset him...

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Matt I'm sorry if I upset you! I didn't want to be annoying...
matt: ~hug~
matt: im sorry i half-snapped at you
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Did I upset you?
matt: no!
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Ok
matt: can you tell me what concert?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : You haven't even told me anything yet
matt: just tell me? please?

‘Screw it.’

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Festival of Lighting. Happy now?
matt: :) yes
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Now are you gonna freak out again if I ask you to tell me?
matt: maybe
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Aw :( Please tell me
matt: there was someone i needed to talk to
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : o.O
matt: lol what?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : I don't understand you
matt: you're not going to ask me who i needed to talk to? wow, i’m surprised
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Now you're just asking for it
matt: maybe
|| Skye|| It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : What is it with you and the word maybe?
matt: lol it makes me seem mysterious
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : *Shakes head* Are you even going to answer if I ask? I mean, it's none of my business who it was that you needed to talk to.
matt: you won’t know until you ask
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Fine, who did you need to talk to?
matt: just someone i know

‘Oh for f**k sakes.’

|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Really? I never would have guessed.
matt: you're not pushing the matter?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : No, because it's obviously not going to get me anywhere.
matt: how do you know?
|| Skye || It's no wonder I'm not eating, I'm not sleeping || : Because! You never give me a straight answer!
matt: so you're giving up?

I sighed and hit my head against my palm. ‘What’s he playing at? Does he even know how much this is tearing me up inside? Why can’t he answer any of my questions? Stupid boy, with stupid brown eyes that I can’t get out of my stupid head.’

|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : Oh seriously, just tell me. I'll do anything
matt: you'll tell me why you need to restart your heart?

‘Oh my God, seriously? Does he notice everything?’

|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : Fine, yes, I'll tell you.
matt: you know the person
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : Ok, so it's either Martin, Bert, or me. Right?
matt: maybe, now tell me why you need to restart your heart
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : If I tell you will you tell me who in the three it was?
matt: yeah i will
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : It's because I'm talking to the guy I met at the concert. So you should tell me now.

The suspense was killing me...

matt: i will if you tell me if i know this guy

‘Now he’s getting annoying.’

|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : Yes you know him

I just wanted to shut him up with all of his questions and no answers.

matt: i do? so it’s me?

When I realized what I had just done, I started panicking. I had totally got stuck in his trap, and now I had no choice but to continue telling him the truth.

|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : Just tell me.
matt: lol is it me?
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : Yes, it's you.
matt: really?
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : Just drop it. I'm going to bed, ttyl
matt : WAIT

Of course I waited...Stupid me.

|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : What?
matt: don’t go?

That’s when I started to have second thoughts about leaving.

|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : I need to work tomorrow
matt: are you really going to be able to sleep?

‘So that settles it, he’s evil.’

|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : Probably not...
matt: than stay? at least until josh gets back
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : When does he get back?
matt: probably around midnight
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : And what time is it now?
matt: 10:40...
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : That's kinda too late...But I'll stay for a little while
matt: :D by the way, the person that i needed to talk to isn’t a guy

‘The person that he needed to talk to is a girl? Oh my God...But that means...’

|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : So it was me? What did you want to talk to me about?
matt: how old are you?

Hearing that made my heart sink, because I figured that the only reason he asked me that was because he found out that I was still a kid. I should have known better, I mean I knew he was older...

|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : You wanted to talk to me about my AGE?
matt: just answer the question
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : How old do you think I am?
matt: under 20 but over 15 for sure lol
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : Lol I'd hope
matt: how old?
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : You mean how young?
matt says: look, i don’t really care i just want to know

‘If I tell him how old I am, will he be disgusted? What am I supposed to do?’

|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : How old are YOU?
matt: over 20 :P
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : I knew THAT.
matt: are you going to answer?
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : Are you going to log off and never come on again when I do?
matt: of course not
|| Skye || Just give me a moment to restart my heart || : Promise?
matt: i promise

I should have known better than to ever believe any of his promises. Who was I to think that he meant them?