Suicide Beat

Inspired by 'Suicidal Thoughts'

I sit inside my four walls,

blasting Biggie Smalls,

suicidal thoughts

with the beat that crawls.

It’s playing as my fingers

tap the keys,

and when he’s spraying,

feels like he speaks to me.

 

Although I can’t feel the

pain behind the verse,

never had to kill

or rob my mama’s purse.

I can feel the fatigue

in every single bar,

that tired drone

a depressed man’s scar.

 

 

I’m always sleep deprived,

half-awake, half alive

asking myself whether I

should create or survive.

For sure, I’d be happy

if I played in the park,

but my mind’s only alight

when I write in the dark.

 

But stay there too long

and the song will infest you.

Burrow itself inside your soul

and do its best to best you.

It will haunt your thoughts

and try to deceive ya,

it made Biggie make the call

then drop the receiver.

 

One hand on his only friend,

the other on a gun,

his hand rock steady

but mind’s on the run.

His life blurs,

destroys his memories,

clouds up his mind,

so it’s only pain

his brain receives.

 

BANG

 

He hits the floor twitching,

another life falls away

in the bloody floors

of a kitchen"f**k…

 

 

And I’m scared man trust me,

I don’t wanna take the fall.

But what scares me more

to be honest,

is I got no one to call

Author's Note

Written to the drum beat to 'Suicidal thoughts' starts around 0:45

Reviews

[Sarah Saz]

I hear the beat.
Powerful words so beautifully written.

[Poetic License]

H.O.L.Y. W.O.W. The power in this poem, the driving "drum beat" - it is unbelievable. The prose is haunting and I still have goose pimples from stem to stern. An amazing offering.

[Hell in a Hip Flask]

Thank you! Was definitely going for the same eerie vibe of the original track, glad it's coming out in the poem

[mercy party]

yes, i truly feel your pain, that was lovely and wonderful.

[BLitZeD]

[cocktail of blues]

Yo George, my sis asked: why are you and your friend so depressed?
I said: Idk, I think its the european way to get girls attention.

[Tony Jordan]

Nicely done!
Fed up livin
Fed up tryin
What if you check out
And get fed up.dying?

:)